For one, I am susceptible to allowing myself to be abused and I am susceptible to allowing myself to be angry. I don’t think it’s likely that I will ever be in a community wherein every member is perfectly healthy in all ways. So, it’s important to notice the ways in which I’m most likely to get off of my game. These are my two most slippery slopes. The former obviously leads to a version of me that is a victim and not the empowered woman capable of steadfastness and grace while at the same time kicking major ass at large. The latter is equally detrimental. My fire burns. It is not a nice neat controlled thing but rather a rage that is blinding and indiscriminate. When I start to get pissed off in general I start to get pissed off pointedly at the people I love, at myself and the cascade is fierce and destructive.
Another major element I see in this introspect is that mental health is a slippery slope. We are all constantly subject to a number of very real stressors that leave us depleted. Those predisposed to less robust mental health are at risk but so are the people who choose to be in relationships with those same people. In other words – EVERYONE. I have, in the past two weeks witnessed massive interpersonal stress in my closest relationships and my take away from this is – I just want people to be at peace. I want to give more grace and I sure as fuck need it myself.
Thank you for your beautiful sharings, Carlina <3
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